I was watching a special programme on channel 8, featuring 'Soul sculpture' and I am truely inspired by him. He is now an advocate in oganic and enviromental issue and has lead a very simple yet meaningful life. What amazed me is how he gave up his 6 figure annual salary job to proceed to 'discover' life on earth. Travelled around the world to understand the world, and now despite of the peer pressure, he insisted that he no longer want to live the busy city life he used to lead.
It was the 1997, silkair plane crash that gave him a wake up call. Due to his job requirement, he had to travel alot via plane. Apparently, that incident had a strong impact on him. He wonder what if he was one of the passenger on that plane? He knew that he didnt want to die, for he had not live his life the fullest. In order to figure out the meaning of life, he quitted his job and went for travelling for 4 years. The experience had thought him many things about life other than money and material.
I feel that singaporean are too busy chasing after material and money is a measure of their success. What success really means? Does it really mean living in high-end appartment or drive luxury car? To me, I fell that they are simply too numb in the midst of chasing their 'success'; they have forgot how to enjoy simple happiness in life. Relationship and friendship grew apart and I really wonder if it worth it.
My colleague L is one of a very typical Singapore. I cant blame her because this is how our society shapes us. She always tells me how to get more money or how to climb the corporate ladder in the fastest way. I know she meant well, for I cant deny money is still the utimate and fundamental tool for basic survival, however, to me, I will still feel 'empty' even if I am on top of the ladder.
L once told me that I have plan fast, for it be too late for me to start all over again. She is now in her 30s and she told me that when she was my age, her salary is almost what she is getting now. In another words, I am such a loser for only getting half of what she used to have when shes my age.
Now I question myself; will I be satisfy with my life if I am a high-flyer? Well, life is not a race. I do not see why I must get myself involve in this 'ladder climbing' competition. To me, I may not be young, but I am still not too old to start all over again. So what if I always change job, and so what if I never stay long in a job, I believe I can only discover my passion this way and at the same time, to reinvent myself. I really don't mind getting a pay of junior level, as long as I realise what my passion is by the end of the day.
While some of my friends are busy with looking for rich boy-friends or too busy making money, I always wonder if I am a freck for I can never fit into their community. Maybe this is what makes me so different from the rest. I have plans and goals. I hope to achieve it, but by doing so, I do not have to follow the crowd and get myself conform to the structure and system registered in a typical sterotype Singaporean's culture and perception. While acheiveing my goals, I want to feel 'alive' at the same time. The sense of being or feeling 'alive' is something which money can never buy.
I have achieve a step to being 'alive' by enaging in voluntary work. I am not doing it very frequent but this is still my very first step. Of course, there will be more to come. Utimately, I hope I can get to travel the world, just like the guy featuring in 'soul sculpture', to understand the human race, our mother earth and of course to understand myself as a human being.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Saturday, October 14, 2006
All about me (not sure how true it is)
Key Areas of your Personality
Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:
Your High Curiosity Level
Your High Emotional Reactivity Level
Your High Multi-tasking Ability
Your High Need for Control/ Predictability
Your High Empathy/ Sensitivity Level
Your Interaction Style:
You scored 55 in the area of extroversion/ introversion, which means that your energy is directed primarily outward towards other people and things - rather than inward. You don't mind being alone, but you feel most energized and inspired when you are around other people. Your mixed extroversion/ introversion tendency affects your learning style: For example, it is more effective for you to listen to a person explain something than it is for you to read about it on your own.
Social patterns: You are right-brained when it comes to interacting with people and recognizing emotions in other people.
What does this mean? Since there is a 'cross-over' in the human brain for visual information, it means that you tend to focus on the left side of a person's face when you want to figure out what they are thinking and feeling.
Hearing preferences are an interesting exception to this right-left crossover rule. For example, if two people were talking behind a closed door and you needed to put your ear on the door to eavesdrop, it's likely that you would use your right ear instead of your left.
Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:
Your High Curiosity Level
Your High Emotional Reactivity Level
Your High Multi-tasking Ability
Your High Need for Control/ Predictability
Your High Empathy/ Sensitivity Level
Your Interaction Style:
You scored 55 in the area of extroversion/ introversion, which means that your energy is directed primarily outward towards other people and things - rather than inward. You don't mind being alone, but you feel most energized and inspired when you are around other people. Your mixed extroversion/ introversion tendency affects your learning style: For example, it is more effective for you to listen to a person explain something than it is for you to read about it on your own.
Social patterns: You are right-brained when it comes to interacting with people and recognizing emotions in other people.
What does this mean? Since there is a 'cross-over' in the human brain for visual information, it means that you tend to focus on the left side of a person's face when you want to figure out what they are thinking and feeling.
Hearing preferences are an interesting exception to this right-left crossover rule. For example, if two people were talking behind a closed door and you needed to put your ear on the door to eavesdrop, it's likely that you would use your right ear instead of your left.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Im Being HAUNTED!!!!!
I know I know... its been ages since I last update my blog. Too many things happen.. Im not sure where I should start.
For the past few months.. Ive been haunted by a crazy woman.. only till last night, I finally break free from this mad woman.
All of a sudden I found peace and I hope this serenity will last forever.....
For the past few months.. Ive been haunted by a crazy woman.. only till last night, I finally break free from this mad woman.
All of a sudden I found peace and I hope this serenity will last forever.....
Monday, July 31, 2006
Sucky Mood
The depressing mood is back again. I don’t know why. Felt so jaded with life and once again, I felt like leaving this place again.
Recently, I have been hearing few stories from friends. I guess, these few stories have enough impact to make me feel depress and disappointed with life. Although I should consider lucky that these mishap did not happen to me, but I cant help feeling sorry and sad for my friends. I do not think they deserve to experience all the unhappiness.
Perhaps, these stories are too overwhelming for me to handle. I became very skeptical about life. I started to have all sorts of wild imagination of what is going to happen to me or how will I react if the same situation befall upon me.
I need a break again. Feel like traveling or staying somewhere far away again, This is what I did in the past;I had escaped problems for 3 years and now I felt like doing it again. Sounds like I am a loner who always escape from problems. I guess, I am always a loner. I have no one to turn to when I need support or help.Sometimes I felt that the burden I had is too much for me. Maybe, at least for now, I can turn to my boyfriend and a couple of loyal friends. This makes me cherish them even more.
As for now, I am looking for some peace. So I really hope that I do not need to hear the same old stories from my friends.
Recently, I have been hearing few stories from friends. I guess, these few stories have enough impact to make me feel depress and disappointed with life. Although I should consider lucky that these mishap did not happen to me, but I cant help feeling sorry and sad for my friends. I do not think they deserve to experience all the unhappiness.
Perhaps, these stories are too overwhelming for me to handle. I became very skeptical about life. I started to have all sorts of wild imagination of what is going to happen to me or how will I react if the same situation befall upon me.
I need a break again. Feel like traveling or staying somewhere far away again, This is what I did in the past;I had escaped problems for 3 years and now I felt like doing it again. Sounds like I am a loner who always escape from problems. I guess, I am always a loner. I have no one to turn to when I need support or help.Sometimes I felt that the burden I had is too much for me. Maybe, at least for now, I can turn to my boyfriend and a couple of loyal friends. This makes me cherish them even more.
As for now, I am looking for some peace. So I really hope that I do not need to hear the same old stories from my friends.
Monday, July 17, 2006
I wish
Ok.. I know life can never be perfect. But if I have the ability to change my life I would wish for :
1. Supermodel height
2. Perfect skin
3. $$$$ in my bank account
4. tai tai life
5. splurge $$$ like no body's business
6. rich and privilege
7. rich and loving bf ( I have a loving bf but not rich, well.. no one can be perfect)
8. able to travel around the world
I know its too shallow to wish for these but I believe I will be a happier person if I have all the above. I have to face the fact that geni in the bottle never exists. Back to work again
1. Supermodel height
2. Perfect skin
3. $$$$ in my bank account
4. tai tai life
5. splurge $$$ like no body's business
6. rich and privilege
7. rich and loving bf ( I have a loving bf but not rich, well.. no one can be perfect)
8. able to travel around the world
I know its too shallow to wish for these but I believe I will be a happier person if I have all the above. I have to face the fact that geni in the bottle never exists. Back to work again
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Dealing with the Quarterlife Crisis
Found this articular meaningful. Extract from MSN.
When high school pals Alexandra Robbins and Abby Wilner, now both 25, got together over lunch several years ago to catch up on their lives after college, they were both ready to tell some glowing stories about how well they were doing.
"At first, we both said we were having a great time," recalls Robbins, an English and American studies double major in college, now working in the Washington, D.C., bureau of the magazine The New Yorker. But before the conversation went much further, the fronts that twentysomethings often put up vanished. Both women admitted they were feeling unhappy, confused, and somewhat adrift.
"Then we started seeing that many of our friends were feeling the same way," Robbins says. "And there weren't really any resources to help us deal with what we were going through."
So Robbins and Wilner decided to create one themselves. The result, based on their own experiences and several hundred interviews with fellow twentysomethings who graduated from college in the past few years, is their book, Quarterlife Crisis: The Unique Challenges of Life in Your Twenties.
It goes without saying that when you interview more than 200 of your peers, you learn a few things you'd like to pass along to others. For Robbins and Wilner, their book and its accompanying Web site are vehicles for doing just that. They also welcomed the opportunity to offer career and personal advice here--particularly for those in the middle of a confusing, demoralizing quarterlife crisis.
Here are a few of Robbins and Wilner's recommendations:
Don't have a career plan? Don't worryYou don't need to freak out if you have no idea what you want to do with your life, stresses Wilner, a Web administrator in Washington, D.C., who majored in psychology in college. "I temped and got a taste of various fields and companies out there before I settled into my first permanent job," she says. "So don't let those external pressures get to you, don't think that all those people with plans have everything figured out, and don't think of it all as some kind of race and that other people are ahead of you. We all backtrack at some point as we make shifts in our plans. That's just the way it is."
Separate a job's meaning from its trappings"Forget about how much money a job will pay you, forget about societal prestige, and forget about what your parents and friends think about your job," says Robbins. "You have to figure out what's meaningful to you in your career, and what will warm your heart and make you want to jump out of bed each morning."
Robbins knows what she's talking about. Three weeks after she graduated from Yale University, she took the first job offer she got after being "completely seduced by the trappings. The pay was wonderful, I liked the people, I had my own office with a door, and my commute was only 15 minutes."
There was only one problem: "The work sucked," she deadpans.
She lasted for eight months but was miserable the whole time. Don't make the same mistake, she stresses.
Scared, lost, or clueless about your career? You're normalMaybe you're questioning yourself and your place in this world more than ever. Maybe you're barraging yourself with intense self-interrogation, as Robbins puts it. Maybe you're filled with anxiety and fear. And maybe you believe you're the only twentysomething who feels so confused.
You're not, Wilner emphasizes.
"One thing I honestly wish is that I had done the research for this book even earlier, because that in itself helped me tremendously," she says. "Listening to everyone's experiences, anxieties, thoughts, fears, hopes and dreams…so much like my own. Who knew?"
It took Robbins and Wilner hundreds of hours and conversations with their peers to learn that they--and their peers--were normal. You are too.
"If I had known back then what I know now, I wouldn't have beaten myself to a mental pulp so frequently," Robbins says. So neither should you.
When high school pals Alexandra Robbins and Abby Wilner, now both 25, got together over lunch several years ago to catch up on their lives after college, they were both ready to tell some glowing stories about how well they were doing.
"At first, we both said we were having a great time," recalls Robbins, an English and American studies double major in college, now working in the Washington, D.C., bureau of the magazine The New Yorker. But before the conversation went much further, the fronts that twentysomethings often put up vanished. Both women admitted they were feeling unhappy, confused, and somewhat adrift.
"Then we started seeing that many of our friends were feeling the same way," Robbins says. "And there weren't really any resources to help us deal with what we were going through."
So Robbins and Wilner decided to create one themselves. The result, based on their own experiences and several hundred interviews with fellow twentysomethings who graduated from college in the past few years, is their book, Quarterlife Crisis: The Unique Challenges of Life in Your Twenties.
It goes without saying that when you interview more than 200 of your peers, you learn a few things you'd like to pass along to others. For Robbins and Wilner, their book and its accompanying Web site are vehicles for doing just that. They also welcomed the opportunity to offer career and personal advice here--particularly for those in the middle of a confusing, demoralizing quarterlife crisis.
Here are a few of Robbins and Wilner's recommendations:
Don't have a career plan? Don't worryYou don't need to freak out if you have no idea what you want to do with your life, stresses Wilner, a Web administrator in Washington, D.C., who majored in psychology in college. "I temped and got a taste of various fields and companies out there before I settled into my first permanent job," she says. "So don't let those external pressures get to you, don't think that all those people with plans have everything figured out, and don't think of it all as some kind of race and that other people are ahead of you. We all backtrack at some point as we make shifts in our plans. That's just the way it is."
Separate a job's meaning from its trappings"Forget about how much money a job will pay you, forget about societal prestige, and forget about what your parents and friends think about your job," says Robbins. "You have to figure out what's meaningful to you in your career, and what will warm your heart and make you want to jump out of bed each morning."
Robbins knows what she's talking about. Three weeks after she graduated from Yale University, she took the first job offer she got after being "completely seduced by the trappings. The pay was wonderful, I liked the people, I had my own office with a door, and my commute was only 15 minutes."
There was only one problem: "The work sucked," she deadpans.
She lasted for eight months but was miserable the whole time. Don't make the same mistake, she stresses.
Scared, lost, or clueless about your career? You're normalMaybe you're questioning yourself and your place in this world more than ever. Maybe you're barraging yourself with intense self-interrogation, as Robbins puts it. Maybe you're filled with anxiety and fear. And maybe you believe you're the only twentysomething who feels so confused.
You're not, Wilner emphasizes.
"One thing I honestly wish is that I had done the research for this book even earlier, because that in itself helped me tremendously," she says. "Listening to everyone's experiences, anxieties, thoughts, fears, hopes and dreams…so much like my own. Who knew?"
It took Robbins and Wilner hundreds of hours and conversations with their peers to learn that they--and their peers--were normal. You are too.
"If I had known back then what I know now, I wouldn't have beaten myself to a mental pulp so frequently," Robbins says. So neither should you.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Road to Happiness
2 of my colleagues are getting married!!! Thats so envy. One of them had a webpage full of their wedding photos and details. Seeing them glow with happiness, Im happy for them too.
I never thought wedding is a romantic event. Perhaps Im not a romantic person. Lots of my galfriends have lots of fantasy of how their wedding day or wedding gown is going to be like, but for me, wedding is a chore.
My perception of wedding changed when I worked in Riz Carlton as a banquet waitress. Having witness countless of wedding event, I began to have my own vision of how my wedding is going to be like. Thats when I understand why my galfriends have such fantasy. Those wedding dinners Ive seen are always so romantic and touching. It makes me wanna cry especially the touching scene of couples thanking their parents.
It is not an easy process to tied a knot. Relationship fails when they cannot overcome obstacle or temptation in reality. In life, relationship fails one after another, Mr or Ms right may hard to come by. No one can define how Mr/Ms right is going to be. Only you can define yourself. For some unlucky ones, the right one never come by, they can only choose the second best available. Thus, I conclude that finding the right one to settle down is like searching a tiny, un-noticable needle in the midst of the ocean (quoted from chinese idom). Thats life. It is that sweet yet bitter.
Watching couples walking down the alse hand in hand, making vow in front of all love ones, I knew for sure thats the very moment for them. Their partners may/may not be the right one, for no one is perfect, but nonetheless, its going to be the most memorable event in their life time.
As a gal, I dream of a romantic wedding held at a beach or garden with my Mr right. Will my dream come true?
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Thoughts
Was watching Project Runway last night. I always love fashion, so Im trying hard not to miss a single episope especially I had night class on that day. And for some reason, yesterday's episope had leave an impact on me.
What was special about the episope was that the designers have to work in a group of 3. This is when you can see either they will work hand in hand or to kill each other. My all time favour Daniel Franco was evicted for being too 'safe'. I have to confess that hes lack of creativity but what I admire most is his attitude towards his work and the competition.
He dare to admit his mistake and he left the competition with grace and dignity. How many contestants can have such charisma??
Sometimes by looking at him, I felt that I could relate to him in certain way. Still remember when I was in Australia studying architecture, I really had a hard time pleasing my tutors. I always thought I am creative. Friends do compliment that I dare to dress differently and creatively. Perhaps the environment over there had proved me wrong.
My tutors always tell me that my design is 'safe'. Just like what the judges commented on Daniel. I couldnt say I do not have the passion to design, maybe my passion is not strong enough, maybe Im not talented, maybe, maybe..... till now, I still couldnt figure out what had gone wrong.
In the end, I chose to give up. I always tell myself the environment kills my passion. Well,thats just an excuse im giving myself just to get away with it. Deep down, I know that Im just lacking of exposure and knowledge in my field.
When I read the biography of all the contestants, I realised that not only they had the passion and skill, but one thing in common about them is that they have years of experience and exposure. With these factors, it helps to inspire their design and at the same time, it helps them to move so far.
As for Daniel, I wouldnt say he is not talented. He was away from fashion industry for 5 years just to help out in family business. I figure that may be the reason why he got kicked out so soon for not being in touch in fashion world for so long.
As for me, Im still not sure if designing is my main passion. I know where my problem lies. Not sure if I will ever wanting to continue what I used to give up. A few of my close friends told me that I will strive if I proceed to design clothes instead of building. Are they right about this? Im not sure, coz I still don't know myself.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
I really regretted meeting K last night. I should have meet up with Linda instead. K and I havent met up for ages. The last time we met up was during the chinese new year. So I decided that maybe its time to catch up with each other.
Unforunately, my hp was down. Lucky I still have a cent coin left to make call to K, telling him my exact location. He made me waited for half an hour. I cant believe a guy can make a girl wait for so long. When he turn up, he seem troubled.
K : I feel so bad to leave my customer halfway.
Me : Customer? What job are you doing? I thought u r a cameraman?
K : Oh.. its some kinda job recruitment. Anyway should we go to Raffles Place to have dinner?
Me : What?!? Thought we had agreed to have dinner at City Hall. Besides, theres nothing much to eat at Raffles Place.
K : Oh come on.. Im really worry about my customer
So I gave in. So the 2 customer was on his mind all the while. I thought we are suppose to have a good time catching up with each other rather than toking about work.
He recommand that the sting ray at a particular store is fantastic. Im eager to try. When we settled down and order our dinner, his friend suddenly called saying she wanted to join in while waiting for her friend. I feel odd. Why would his friend wanted to join in just like that? I never question him. His friend, V came and she turn out to be very friendly. We chatted about our life and work. Everything goes on fine when suddenly she brought up a topic.
V : Oh.. So you used to be an insurance agent. Its a tough job and their system don't seem to work anymore. Have you heard of any MLM (Multi level marketing)
Oh no... I knew something wasnt right
Me : Ya I heard of that
V : So whats your opinion? Are your positive or negative about it?
Me : Im neutral
V : Then have you heard of SLM ( Single level marketing)
Me : No. Never
The conversation starts to revolve around this topic. Straight away, I knew the purpose of this meeting. K didnt genuine ask me out to find out more about my life but rather he had agenda in his mind. Shortly after, V left. I try to test K to see what is on his mind.
Me : So what are we going to do after the dinner?
K : I don't know. But I want to go back to my company. I don't feel at ease leaving my customer to my friend althought my friend said they are in good hands.
Me : (Disappointed)Oh... so you better go back and have a look just in case.. you know..
K : Ya. Then how about you? why don't you come to my office and have a look.
Me : (Im not that dumb to fall into your trap) No thanks besides I need to rest early.
We parted. Im feeling so shitty afterwards. I wonder if I would still wanna meet up with him again. His mind is all about his business and wanting to bring me into the business. His friend V was there for a purpose as well. The whole thing is a plot. Gosh!!
Unforunately, my hp was down. Lucky I still have a cent coin left to make call to K, telling him my exact location. He made me waited for half an hour. I cant believe a guy can make a girl wait for so long. When he turn up, he seem troubled.
K : I feel so bad to leave my customer halfway.
Me : Customer? What job are you doing? I thought u r a cameraman?
K : Oh.. its some kinda job recruitment. Anyway should we go to Raffles Place to have dinner?
Me : What?!? Thought we had agreed to have dinner at City Hall. Besides, theres nothing much to eat at Raffles Place.
K : Oh come on.. Im really worry about my customer
So I gave in. So the 2 customer was on his mind all the while. I thought we are suppose to have a good time catching up with each other rather than toking about work.
He recommand that the sting ray at a particular store is fantastic. Im eager to try. When we settled down and order our dinner, his friend suddenly called saying she wanted to join in while waiting for her friend. I feel odd. Why would his friend wanted to join in just like that? I never question him. His friend, V came and she turn out to be very friendly. We chatted about our life and work. Everything goes on fine when suddenly she brought up a topic.
V : Oh.. So you used to be an insurance agent. Its a tough job and their system don't seem to work anymore. Have you heard of any MLM (Multi level marketing)
Oh no... I knew something wasnt right
Me : Ya I heard of that
V : So whats your opinion? Are your positive or negative about it?
Me : Im neutral
V : Then have you heard of SLM ( Single level marketing)
Me : No. Never
The conversation starts to revolve around this topic. Straight away, I knew the purpose of this meeting. K didnt genuine ask me out to find out more about my life but rather he had agenda in his mind. Shortly after, V left. I try to test K to see what is on his mind.
Me : So what are we going to do after the dinner?
K : I don't know. But I want to go back to my company. I don't feel at ease leaving my customer to my friend althought my friend said they are in good hands.
Me : (Disappointed)Oh... so you better go back and have a look just in case.. you know..
K : Ya. Then how about you? why don't you come to my office and have a look.
Me : (Im not that dumb to fall into your trap) No thanks besides I need to rest early.
We parted. Im feeling so shitty afterwards. I wonder if I would still wanna meet up with him again. His mind is all about his business and wanting to bring me into the business. His friend V was there for a purpose as well. The whole thing is a plot. Gosh!!
Monday, June 05, 2006
Undiscipline
Its Monday again. As usual, I couldnt wake up on time but luckily I wasnt late this morning. It seems like everyone in the office is having blues; they are all late for work. Hahaha.. typical Monday. Today will be a tiring day for me; have to attend night class tonight. I really wonder how to keep myself awake for the lesson.
I am impress by my classmates at how hardworking they are. They make me feel so guilty. Not only they have to commit to their full-time,they are full-time mothers as well. But they sill find time to do their revision. So I set aside to revise everything on Sunday. However this is what I did during the last weekends:
Friday:
Hippi... Was glad the work was over. I hang out with my colleague Ju for dinner. Planned to finish dinner before 830.. but not possible.. with all the chatting and shopping, I reach home at around 930. My boy was suppose to come to my house to deposit his newly bought 2nd hand musical keyboard and planned to have another round of dinner with him. But I waited for 45 mins before he turn up. Was pissed, so ended I didnt have dinner with him.
Saturday:
Woke up with my boy beside me. It definately brighten up my morning, esp being able to see your love ones the moment you open your eyes. Im glad that I didnt push him out of my bed. He was such a pig. Im about to finish reading the book ' The Devil Wears Prada'. So I decided to finish the whole book before waking him up.
By noon time, he is still zzzz. I woke him up and ask him to buy brunch for me. Afternoon sucks. We had no idea where to go. Instead I watch TV while he was busy exploring his new keyboard. I never know he was so interested and talented in Music. After struggling to play a few chinese song, he gave up. Then we ended up having afternoon nap together.
By the time we woke up, its late noon. I was disgusted by the way we wasted our weekend sleeping. To utilize our weekend, we got ourself prepare and head down to Orchard. My main purpose of going to Orchard is to buy books from Kinokuniya but we ended up shopping for clothes as well. By the end of the day, I got myself a book and a nice top from Mango ($$$). Gosh, I have to bring lunch to office from now on. I dun wish to overspend.
Sunday:
Suppose to study but half the day was used for watching TV. I love to sit in front of the TV on Sundays coz no one will interfer me. After which, I discipline myself to start my revision. My boy went back to camp for military exercise. Sunday isnt the same anymore without him but its a good time for me to focus on my studies. By late noon, I had a surprise. My boy appear in front of me. Didnt expect him to book out. Was thrill that I have someone to have dinner with.
By night time, its Tv time again and its also time for boy to go back to his camp. I tell myself I must continue my revision after the Tv programme. Unexpectedly, K called me right after the program ended. Thought this will be a short conversion but we ended up chatting till 11pm. Perhaps hes got lots to complain about his work. Life is really not easy as a cameraman. Feel so sorry for him sometimes.
So I only manage to finish reading one chapter of my textbook for the whole weekend. I have all the reason to feel guilty. Boy and I decided that I must really start my revision next week. Its a good way to save money too.. haha
I am impress by my classmates at how hardworking they are. They make me feel so guilty. Not only they have to commit to their full-time,they are full-time mothers as well. But they sill find time to do their revision. So I set aside to revise everything on Sunday. However this is what I did during the last weekends:
Friday:
Hippi... Was glad the work was over. I hang out with my colleague Ju for dinner. Planned to finish dinner before 830.. but not possible.. with all the chatting and shopping, I reach home at around 930. My boy was suppose to come to my house to deposit his newly bought 2nd hand musical keyboard and planned to have another round of dinner with him. But I waited for 45 mins before he turn up. Was pissed, so ended I didnt have dinner with him.
Saturday:
Woke up with my boy beside me. It definately brighten up my morning, esp being able to see your love ones the moment you open your eyes. Im glad that I didnt push him out of my bed. He was such a pig. Im about to finish reading the book ' The Devil Wears Prada'. So I decided to finish the whole book before waking him up.
By noon time, he is still zzzz. I woke him up and ask him to buy brunch for me. Afternoon sucks. We had no idea where to go. Instead I watch TV while he was busy exploring his new keyboard. I never know he was so interested and talented in Music. After struggling to play a few chinese song, he gave up. Then we ended up having afternoon nap together.
By the time we woke up, its late noon. I was disgusted by the way we wasted our weekend sleeping. To utilize our weekend, we got ourself prepare and head down to Orchard. My main purpose of going to Orchard is to buy books from Kinokuniya but we ended up shopping for clothes as well. By the end of the day, I got myself a book and a nice top from Mango ($$$). Gosh, I have to bring lunch to office from now on. I dun wish to overspend.
Sunday:
Suppose to study but half the day was used for watching TV. I love to sit in front of the TV on Sundays coz no one will interfer me. After which, I discipline myself to start my revision. My boy went back to camp for military exercise. Sunday isnt the same anymore without him but its a good time for me to focus on my studies. By late noon, I had a surprise. My boy appear in front of me. Didnt expect him to book out. Was thrill that I have someone to have dinner with.
By night time, its Tv time again and its also time for boy to go back to his camp. I tell myself I must continue my revision after the Tv programme. Unexpectedly, K called me right after the program ended. Thought this will be a short conversion but we ended up chatting till 11pm. Perhaps hes got lots to complain about his work. Life is really not easy as a cameraman. Feel so sorry for him sometimes.
So I only manage to finish reading one chapter of my textbook for the whole weekend. I have all the reason to feel guilty. Boy and I decided that I must really start my revision next week. Its a good way to save money too.. haha
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
First Day of my class
Just sign up for a diploma course. Monday was my first day of class. Its also my first time having a part-time study while having to work full-time. I know its not going to be easy but not matter what I will have to endure for 9 to 10 mths.
Starting a new course is a new start for me. Its definately not as tough as getting a degree but I know it is going to occupy my time. Im kinda excited and looking forward to the course.
The class started at 7pm. I thought wouldn't be able to make it on time. Moreover, I was so tired after spending the whole day in the office. To make things worst, I dont even had time for quick bite. I wonder how am I going to concentrate during lesson.
My boy gave me a big surprise by waiting for me at the train station. Didnt expect to see him as he was suppose to be in camp. His appearance lift up my spirit. He said he wanted to give me a boost for my first day. Thats kinda sweet of him.
After we found our way to the school, he left. I was late by only 5 mins. I was lead to a small classroom with less than15 students. Guess smaller class will be better. The teacher was not bad. At least her lesson wasnt boring. For the first half of the lesson, my mind was clear. However, I cant concentrate during the second half. I was hungry and plus the fact that the room was soooo cold. The air-con was literally aiming at me. Had chosen the wrong seat for my first day. To make things worst, my teacher requested that we should not change our sitting arrangement so that she can remember our names better. Unable to focus, I had to request my teacher to adjust the temperature of the air-con. I thought Im the only one feeling cold, but when I point out to the teacher about the coldness, the rest of the class started to make 'noise' about the temperature. The point is, why didnt they voice out instead of waiting for someone to make the first move.
Anyway, the class ended at 9.30pm. My first instinct is to rush home to have my dinner. Today will be my second day. I should say I'm well prepared for hunger. Had a loaf of bread with me to sustain me through.
Starting a new course is a new start for me. Its definately not as tough as getting a degree but I know it is going to occupy my time. Im kinda excited and looking forward to the course.
The class started at 7pm. I thought wouldn't be able to make it on time. Moreover, I was so tired after spending the whole day in the office. To make things worst, I dont even had time for quick bite. I wonder how am I going to concentrate during lesson.
My boy gave me a big surprise by waiting for me at the train station. Didnt expect to see him as he was suppose to be in camp. His appearance lift up my spirit. He said he wanted to give me a boost for my first day. Thats kinda sweet of him.
After we found our way to the school, he left. I was late by only 5 mins. I was lead to a small classroom with less than15 students. Guess smaller class will be better. The teacher was not bad. At least her lesson wasnt boring. For the first half of the lesson, my mind was clear. However, I cant concentrate during the second half. I was hungry and plus the fact that the room was soooo cold. The air-con was literally aiming at me. Had chosen the wrong seat for my first day. To make things worst, my teacher requested that we should not change our sitting arrangement so that she can remember our names better. Unable to focus, I had to request my teacher to adjust the temperature of the air-con. I thought Im the only one feeling cold, but when I point out to the teacher about the coldness, the rest of the class started to make 'noise' about the temperature. The point is, why didnt they voice out instead of waiting for someone to make the first move.
Anyway, the class ended at 9.30pm. My first instinct is to rush home to have my dinner. Today will be my second day. I should say I'm well prepared for hunger. Had a loaf of bread with me to sustain me through.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
NO $$$$
Depts Depts Depts!!!!!
I wonder whats the point of working sometimes. With my pay, 80% goes to repay depts, with the pathetic 20% for me to spend. Working is just a way for me to pay off depts and no enjoyment for me. Life simply SUCKS!!!!
Cant go for holiday, no new labtop for me!!!!!
I wonder whats the point of working sometimes. With my pay, 80% goes to repay depts, with the pathetic 20% for me to spend. Working is just a way for me to pay off depts and no enjoyment for me. Life simply SUCKS!!!!
Cant go for holiday, no new labtop for me!!!!!
Monday, May 08, 2006
Birthday Weekend
Dun get it wrong. Its not my birthday. I have been celebrating 2 birthdays over the weekend. One is my long time friend and another one is my sister. Both of them share the same birthday; the only difference between both of them is the age and the character.
Was stressing wat to get for my sister. Its her 21st birthday. I must get something perfect for her. In the end I got her a very expensive japanese style handphone porch. Im not sure if it worth the price but I know my sis is going to like it.
My sis held her bday bash at home on the friday nite. Its kinda sweet to see her friends preparing food and drinks for my sister. Im sure its going to make her day.
Its good to be young, like wat Justine always tells me. Suddenly I had a wake up call: I need to treasure my youth rather than indulge in unhappiness.
Sat is suppose to be a voting day but im glad my area do not have opposition party. So in the evening, meet up with the gals and had a great time having stemboat and loads of ice-cream cakes. Havent been enjoying so much since the time I joined Prudential. Its good to be free again. Haha.
Was stressing wat to get for my sister. Its her 21st birthday. I must get something perfect for her. In the end I got her a very expensive japanese style handphone porch. Im not sure if it worth the price but I know my sis is going to like it.
My sis held her bday bash at home on the friday nite. Its kinda sweet to see her friends preparing food and drinks for my sister. Im sure its going to make her day.
Its good to be young, like wat Justine always tells me. Suddenly I had a wake up call: I need to treasure my youth rather than indulge in unhappiness.
Sat is suppose to be a voting day but im glad my area do not have opposition party. So in the evening, meet up with the gals and had a great time having stemboat and loads of ice-cream cakes. Havent been enjoying so much since the time I joined Prudential. Its good to be free again. Haha.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Ordinary Day
Its another brand new day
Just an ordinary day
Just a gal
An ordinary gal.
Drag herself out from the bed
and get herself ready for the brand new day.
Its just a warm ordinary day
Train is crowded, Bus is crowded.
But this is usual.
She made her way to her office.
Seated in her cubicle, facing her laptop
She Begin to start off her day from 9 to 6.
The day is getting dark.
She is preparing to end of her work.
As usual, She is looking forward to see an ordinary boy.
Rushing off immediately.
And after all the long and tiring journey,
She finally see the ordinary boy waiting for her at the train station.
The boy held her hand,
whispering to her ear "I miss you".
Its just an ordinary words
but it melts her heart
Then he took her hand
and the ordinary couple headed home.
Just an ordinary day
Just a gal
An ordinary gal.
Drag herself out from the bed
and get herself ready for the brand new day.
Its just a warm ordinary day
Train is crowded, Bus is crowded.
But this is usual.
She made her way to her office.
Seated in her cubicle, facing her laptop
She Begin to start off her day from 9 to 6.
The day is getting dark.
She is preparing to end of her work.
As usual, She is looking forward to see an ordinary boy.
Rushing off immediately.
And after all the long and tiring journey,
She finally see the ordinary boy waiting for her at the train station.
The boy held her hand,
whispering to her ear "I miss you".
Its just an ordinary words
but it melts her heart
Then he took her hand
and the ordinary couple headed home.
Friday, April 21, 2006
Happy outcome
Its been a month plus since I last update my blog. March was a confusion and chaotic month for me. Having a bad time at Prudential. Management sucks, boss sucks, everything there just sucks. No wonder so many of my colleagues left. Well.. its a history now. I found a new job and I am typing this in my new office now. keke... Its friday and my manager is on leave... life is just too perfect for the time being.
Its a brand new start for me. Ive been in this new company for 3 weeks. I am still in my 'honeymoon' period. So I must enjoy my honeymoon as much as I can now.. Once my manager assign the accounts to me I thk I will be damn busy by then. I am now a Corporate Relation Executive. Title Sounds good rite... haha.. Basically I have to manage and maintain relationship with the existing clients. Sounds an easy task to me.. I duno y my manager make it sound as though this is a tough job. The only challenge is that I may have to handle difficult clients and lots of workload.
So far, I like the environment here. Coz I still havent got involve in any poilitics here.. but can tell the ppl here are so much better than when Im in JCO. Since Im here, my life have change quite a fair bit .
1) I don't have to stress every single day or minute about getting deals or not
2) I don't have to work till late night
3) I can spend more time for my friends, boyfriend and myself
4) My pay is not alot but at least I can substain myself and lead a much comfortable life than before when I even have to stress for money every now and then.
So I set myself new goal and resolution:
1) Positive attitude towards my work
2) Take up a secretaty course (I finally know what I want. I hope to be a corporate secretary)
3) Get myself a laptop
4) Repair my face
I hope my career will be a smooth one this time. Wish me luck!!!
Its a brand new start for me. Ive been in this new company for 3 weeks. I am still in my 'honeymoon' period. So I must enjoy my honeymoon as much as I can now.. Once my manager assign the accounts to me I thk I will be damn busy by then. I am now a Corporate Relation Executive. Title Sounds good rite... haha.. Basically I have to manage and maintain relationship with the existing clients. Sounds an easy task to me.. I duno y my manager make it sound as though this is a tough job. The only challenge is that I may have to handle difficult clients and lots of workload.
So far, I like the environment here. Coz I still havent got involve in any poilitics here.. but can tell the ppl here are so much better than when Im in JCO. Since Im here, my life have change quite a fair bit .
1) I don't have to stress every single day or minute about getting deals or not
2) I don't have to work till late night
3) I can spend more time for my friends, boyfriend and myself
4) My pay is not alot but at least I can substain myself and lead a much comfortable life than before when I even have to stress for money every now and then.
So I set myself new goal and resolution:
1) Positive attitude towards my work
2) Take up a secretaty course (I finally know what I want. I hope to be a corporate secretary)
3) Get myself a laptop
4) Repair my face
I hope my career will be a smooth one this time. Wish me luck!!!
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Imagine
Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
John Lennon
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
John Lennon
Surrender to fate
I used to think that life can be simple and easy...
each day was a carefree day for me...
everything comes so easy for me.. and that makes me believe things will go my way
I know I was naive.
Whatever I had plan for my future never came true.
Ive met lots of ups and downs and thats when I know that growing up is never easy.
My carefree days are gone, for I have lots to worry.
My smile gradually disappeared and I know I am not truely happy with my life.
Sometimes I wish that I could turn back the clock,
back to those happy days I used to have.
And if I could go back to the past, I would like to make things right.
Of course what past had past, I am not in control to change my destiny.
People always tells me fate lies in my hands
but I am lost at how I can change my own fate.
Perhaps I am a weakling.
I have surrender my life to fate
each day was a carefree day for me...
everything comes so easy for me.. and that makes me believe things will go my way
I know I was naive.
Whatever I had plan for my future never came true.
Ive met lots of ups and downs and thats when I know that growing up is never easy.
My carefree days are gone, for I have lots to worry.
My smile gradually disappeared and I know I am not truely happy with my life.
Sometimes I wish that I could turn back the clock,
back to those happy days I used to have.
And if I could go back to the past, I would like to make things right.
Of course what past had past, I am not in control to change my destiny.
People always tells me fate lies in my hands
but I am lost at how I can change my own fate.
Perhaps I am a weakling.
I have surrender my life to fate
Monday, January 16, 2006
Malacca Trip
Just back from Malacca trip. Having a Annual General Meeting there. Somehow after the trip, I feel more recharge and is now prepared for more challenges. During the trip,I didnt explore around the city as the meeting ended till late evening.
At first, I don't really look forward to this trip as I dun get a chance to spend my weekends with John. However, I didnt regret going. But its through this trip, I got to see that my colleagues and my boss are actually nice people. All the while I have wrong perception about them. After the meeting, I realise that I have colleagues wanting me to move on and I am rather surprise that they have more faith in me that I do. It was a wake up call asking me to start believing in myself.
In the past, I have work for quite a number of companies be4. But this is the only company which makes me feel that I am one of their family. Though I do not stick to any 'gang' within the company, somehow, I feel very comfortable with the colleagues.
Anyway, pretty tired now. Will be prepared to face the new day tomorrow :p
At first, I don't really look forward to this trip as I dun get a chance to spend my weekends with John. However, I didnt regret going. But its through this trip, I got to see that my colleagues and my boss are actually nice people. All the while I have wrong perception about them. After the meeting, I realise that I have colleagues wanting me to move on and I am rather surprise that they have more faith in me that I do. It was a wake up call asking me to start believing in myself.
In the past, I have work for quite a number of companies be4. But this is the only company which makes me feel that I am one of their family. Though I do not stick to any 'gang' within the company, somehow, I feel very comfortable with the colleagues.
Anyway, pretty tired now. Will be prepared to face the new day tomorrow :p
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