My Final day

I have been waiting for this day for so long. I cant imagine I dutifully serving this company for one year and one month. I am so relief. I do hope I can have a brand new start at my new working environment.

Wish me luck!!

I am stupid

He says I am stupid, just because I do not know certain things. Who are born to know every single information in all aspect.

Since young, my parents told me I am stupid, pig brain. Am I really so stupid? Am I really so worthless?

That is emotional abuse. Those abusing words coming out of the mouth of your love ones hurts badly.

Do you still love me?

You promise me you want to bring comfort to my life
You promise me you will want to share my burden
You promise me you will ease my suffering
You promise me you will take care of me unconditionally

I believe you will honor your promise
I believe in you
but
You break your promise
You break my heart

I insisted you are the one, when the world do not agree on our relationship
I turn my friends away who thinks you are a bad choice
I believe you can bring me happiness,
thus
I ease your pain by supporting you financially
despite the fact that I am in deep shit
I stood by your side when the world despise you

However, I can never imagine you have denial all the good deeds I had done for you.
You claim that I am using money to thrash you,
You claim that my financial support is not a big deal.
You believe I did not spend much on you when I have been providing the capital for your food and transportation every month when you run out of cash.
You disappoint me further by surging on luxury and non-necessity items.

Am I a fool?
Am I being cheated?
Do I deserve to love someone who does not appreciate what I had done for you?

You no longer remember our anniversary
You no longer give me surprises
You no longer pamper me
You no longer share the pain with me

I am standing alone, facing the world.
I feel so lonely
The only question I want to know is; Do you still love me like you used to be?