Have been so busy with my life. No time for friends and bf. I don't even have time for myself. Finally today, Im giving myself a day's off.

Yesterday was John's Birthday. As his gf, I feel that I didnt really put in effort to make his day a memorable one. Partly becoz both of us are broke. He is far worst than me. I wonder when I will be rich.

We ended up watch 'legally blond' at home. Watch it umteen times.. but this is the only way to subsitute with movies. Wanted to get a small cake for him but he stop me from getting one. Thought of getting a simple gift for him but he told me he will be angry if I do. He said the greatest gift was 'me'. Thats so sweet of him. I know he don't want me to spend any money and because of this, he is making me feeling so guilty.

He was so thankful and happy when I told him I am going to put aside my work and spend the day with him. Somehow, I didnt make his day a special one. It seems like its just a normal day. After getting a bad news from one of my prospect at night, my mood turn sour. I try to be happy in front of him but guess I cant hide. Im feeling even worst when he was about to return to his camp. Really wish to spend more time with him.

I really do hope he was happy yesterday. All these while I had hardly spend time with him even on weekends as I am so busy with my work. Really do miss him.; miss those days when we hang around aimlessly in Orchard, shopping, movies, etc...Our life have change ever since Im in this line, but our feeling are still as strong as ever :p