OH MY GOD!!!!!! ANOTHER FRIEND OF MINE IS GETTING MARRIED SOON !!!!! SO HAPPY FOR HER !!!! REALLY WISH HER ALL THE BEST ... HEHE
I've seen my friends... one by one getting married.... happy for them to have found their soulmate finally..... hehe... so when will be my turn???
Always dreaming of becoming a future tai tai... having huge sparkling diamonds shining on me ...hehehe.... so will I get myself a rich husband??!!???... ok... I know I'm dreaming too much... its time to get back to reality.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Time is passing so slowly
22 more days to go... time seems to be crawling... still have a week to go before nov... sigh.... felt as though im rotting ...
Saturday, October 23, 2004
I always wonder am I a living shadow of my mum... Im born to be her puppet. After all these years living behind her shadow, I felt Im so vunerlable when I have to face the world alone. She claims that she loves me, but I doubt so. I am just her 'investment' for her own good.
Well... she is not really a bad mum... she is trying to provide me anything I wan in watever possible way... unlike my father. But I felt so soffocated. My life, my future is run by her... I dun have the luxury to determine my life.
I always wonder why did she bring me out to this world when she never stood by me a single times. I juz felt that I had enough. I wanted to break free of the strings attach to me. I juz wan her to stay out of my business.
Well... she is not really a bad mum... she is trying to provide me anything I wan in watever possible way... unlike my father. But I felt so soffocated. My life, my future is run by her... I dun have the luxury to determine my life.
I always wonder why did she bring me out to this world when she never stood by me a single times. I juz felt that I had enough. I wanted to break free of the strings attach to me. I juz wan her to stay out of my business.
Friday, October 22, 2004
LOVE IS ALL AROUND
24 more days to go gals.... hope theres something to cheer up the house....
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
No, not just for some but just for every, every, everyone.
What the world needs now,
Is love, sweet love,
It's the only thing that there's just too little of.
No, not just for some but just for every, every, everyone.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Im Sick....:(
Envy ah hua... she's heading to Hong Kong today... hope she enjoy herself....
Down with fever these 2 days... maybe I over-worked.... over strain my body... guess I might need at least 2 weeks break from work.... or maybe I might stop working.... dun thk this job suits me...
wan my bear bear leh... miss him leh.... :( 26 more days to go... hehe.... looking forward to see him..
Down with fever these 2 days... maybe I over-worked.... over strain my body... guess I might need at least 2 weeks break from work.... or maybe I might stop working.... dun thk this job suits me...
wan my bear bear leh... miss him leh.... :( 26 more days to go... hehe.... looking forward to see him..
Friday, October 15, 2004
MY HAIR!!!!
OH MY GOD!!!!! My hair is now a disaster..... jas juz helped me to get my hair dye... well... the colour never turn out the way i expected....sighhh..... i will never trust DIY hair dye again... How am I going to face my boy with my hair like this?!?!?!?!
Monday, October 11, 2004
The Doom Week
It seems like the week of death.... 3 great people had died. Christopher Reeve died of heart failure without having to fuilfilled his last dream. A French Philosopher, Jacques Derrida died at the age of 74. Keith Miller died at the age of 84. Who's next?
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Was watching My Architect- a son's journey. A truely touching documentation. Its basically toking about Louis kahn's project and life. And this is the first time, I learn to appreaciate architecture in a spirital level. And for the first time, I begin to understand what is architecture.
Someone used to ask me what is architecture. Frankly speaking, being an architecture student, I cant define it. I thought I'm a loser not being able to find a style of my own, till I watched this film, Kahn found his style only in his 50's or 60's.
I always wonder will I ever become someone big like him, but that means to sacrifice the devotion to those love ones... life is not easy, especially being an artist. This film has inspired me; not to be a super great architect, but not giving up architecture.
http://www.myarchitectfilm.com/
Someone used to ask me what is architecture. Frankly speaking, being an architecture student, I cant define it. I thought I'm a loser not being able to find a style of my own, till I watched this film, Kahn found his style only in his 50's or 60's.
I always wonder will I ever become someone big like him, but that means to sacrifice the devotion to those love ones... life is not easy, especially being an artist. This film has inspired me; not to be a super great architect, but not giving up architecture.
http://www.myarchitectfilm.com/
Monday, October 04, 2004
Life
Its 230 am... supposingly... I should be tired... but a sudden unexpected bad news have kept me awake...thought it is not related to me but somehow it haunts me...
Had a mix feeling... confused, sad, perplex.... whatever you can name... sudden realised how fragile life is... well.. I've known this fact ... but the bad news had given me a waking call; Life is too precious. Someone might be there.. having a short chat with you.. the next minute.. he is gone, forever. How 'amazing' it is.
It made me realised how much I've taken ppl around me for granted. I don't even seem to treasure those dearest to me. Even for friends... sometimes I can't even bother to contact them. I've expect them to be always there for me anytime, anywhere. I procrastinate to pick up the phone to call my friends or to show that I care to my love ones. Never realised that one day, they will leave me and never return.
Well... keep reminding myself that life is preious, but I never take my life seriously. I always know I have not live to my fullest but I never take the effort to live the way I want or to make the best out of everything. Always grumble how unfair or bad life is, I never care to appreciate those happy moments or any form of success in life.
Its time for me to buck up. I've wasted enough time. I have to find the purpose of living ( I guess and I hope I have found), to cherish every single moment spend with my love ones and friends, and of course myself.
Had a mix feeling... confused, sad, perplex.... whatever you can name... sudden realised how fragile life is... well.. I've known this fact ... but the bad news had given me a waking call; Life is too precious. Someone might be there.. having a short chat with you.. the next minute.. he is gone, forever. How 'amazing' it is.
It made me realised how much I've taken ppl around me for granted. I don't even seem to treasure those dearest to me. Even for friends... sometimes I can't even bother to contact them. I've expect them to be always there for me anytime, anywhere. I procrastinate to pick up the phone to call my friends or to show that I care to my love ones. Never realised that one day, they will leave me and never return.
Well... keep reminding myself that life is preious, but I never take my life seriously. I always know I have not live to my fullest but I never take the effort to live the way I want or to make the best out of everything. Always grumble how unfair or bad life is, I never care to appreciate those happy moments or any form of success in life.
Its time for me to buck up. I've wasted enough time. I have to find the purpose of living ( I guess and I hope I have found), to cherish every single moment spend with my love ones and friends, and of course myself.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
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